It's been another few days of nothingness here. With the days passing pretty uneventful, housework, schoolwork, the odd walk, the kids being out for 5 minutes then coming back in due to fights and arguments. I'm a lover of making routines and plans but not such a lover of sticking to them. I need a few tools or ideas that give the result of having a plan but don't feel boring or rigid. Back when I gave birth to my first son in 2007, I felt the endless nappies and housework mind numbing and had to find a way to make it more fun. The thought of this for years on end is depressing. I found flylady.net. This cut everything down to 'baby steps' and I feel that now, in this time, I need baby steps for every aspect of my life. I've been living on the skid of my pants since this lockdown came along. Yes I've made plans for everything but it's almost as if, as soon as I make a plan, my goal is to reject it because it's boring. In my mind's eye, I have l...
Let's start with why this blog is about to take shape. We are currently 74 days into COVID19 lockdown and this woman is bat shit crazy with four boys in the house and her husband working from home. Parents now need to be teachers as well as every other role they already had with the added pressure of nowhere to go to get rid of that energy that needs dispersed. There's a lack of freedom and lack of control to found in this but now that I've ran about like a headless chicken for the last couple of months, I am ready to gain as much freedom and as much control as I possibly can out of the situation. I've had enough of fighting fires everywhere barely looking at myself, forgetting who I am as I meet everyone else's needs. Daring to admit, I've had a few days where I've just tried to block it all out. So I've created this blog to track my journey from this place of chaos in my life with a few areas that I'd like to focus on to help me take back my own ...